Third Trimester Fatigue

Oh man, I am so wiped out. It's getting so it is a real problem getting up out a seated position. My eyelids are heavy and I am having trouble breathing due to the size of my little son. 3 or 4 pounds never felt so heavy.

It doesn't matter how much sleep I get either. I slept most of yesterday and still wanted to be in bed by 9. Man, I need a nap.

Pregnant Dreams

I keep having dreams about nursing and lactating and things like that. Last night in my dream, Simon was about 8 or 9 months old with a fabulous curly top and facial expressions like Aram's. He nursed and I was also trying to get rid of an obnoxious house guest. Then Aram squirted some breast milk on his face slapstick style. It was a little disturbing.

We've been seeing many serious movies during this pregnancy. Aram decided we had to see Birth of a Nation and Triumph of the Will. Needless to say I didn't get through either one. I just hope the baby doesn't develop a profound mistrust of people as a result of these two terrifying glimpses into the darkness of humanity. I think they are just too serious to show to a child in utero. I don't think I can watch any more war or racism movies for a while. Although tonight we are supposed to see Fog of War tonight, but that seems more like an anti-war movie. Hopefully it won't depress me.

now that you mention it

hi, this is aram butting in. we really need a digital video camera, so we can send vids of the tyke to the whole clan and make him the star of his own little music videos. unfortunately none of the registries contain such an item -- i guess most parents prefer to immortalize their children's infancies through haiku or something. anyway, if you'd like to chip in for such a thing, talk amongst yourselves, or maybe we can start our own little fund going.

Still wearing my regular jeans

It is so weird that I have barely had to buy maternity gear at all. My mother sent me some really great tops that I can even wear after the birth. I also bought 2 pairs of maternity pants. But the fact is that the low-rise jeans I bought when I lost a few inches in June or July still work under the belly. Nothing that used to fit around the waist fits me though, which is normal. But my hips and legs are perhaps even smaller than they were when I started. The baby is totally normal though. I guess I've been eating healthier.

Only 6 to 9 weeks to go. The baby is definitely bigger and dropping. He was lower this morning than he was yesterday.

I need a manicure and a pedicure. I have a gift certificate for a pedicure. Maybe I'll throw a manicure on top of that just to pamper myself. Maybe before the baby shower.

Oh, that's right, we are having a baby shower on April 4th. For anyone who wants to send stuff, we are registered at babiesrus.com and babystyle.com. But please don't feel obliged. Cards and art are also more than welcome. Or if you see something cool that I forgot to put on the list, that's cool too.

Okay that is all for now.

More About Me

Okay so here we are finishing the 32nd week of all this baby growing stuff and I am mostly sleepy. There are those who can't even believe I'm still working. Then there are others who tell me they were working up until they went into labor. I think I'm doing what is standard: waiting until about 2 weeks or so before the due date and then resting.

Ah, sweet rest. I will savour every moment of it. Although my guess is that I won't actually do much resting. I will probably (hopefully) use my mornings, when I have the most energy, cleaning and organizing. Then I will probably go to sleep at around 1:30. And stay that way for several hours. I am looking forward to sleeping long enough to actually have the energy to do stuff.

The baby lets me know how he's doing now. Today I really wanted some pecans, but I couldn't find any. I got pistachios instead. The little boy gave me a few thumps of approval. I like the affirmation part of all of this. I must remember it when he gets into the "I hate you" mode in a few years.

Anyway, until the next time....

Gail Update

So Gail's ex-boy has decided to stay out of her way, I guess realizing that he is totally incapable of being a responsible father. Gail is eight gazillion times better. I think I haven't seen her this relaxed and content in years. She will be heading back to NY for a few months to live rent-free with her mom and make some money so she can continue to kick ass here on the fairer coast.

I will miss her and Bode while they are gone and I'm sorry she won't be here for baby Simon's birth. But I'm glad she has a plan that will work for her. And I'm SO glad she's rid of the guy!

In the meantime I am waddling and tired almost all the time. Aram keeps asking if I want to do different things like go to the movies or out to dinner during the week, and frankly it is impossible at this point. Working 8.5 hours a day takes a toll on the third trimester bodies. Last night we went and hung out at Ahmed's place and after a while he and Aram wanted to go to a coffee shop. I started to get up to be ready to do that and my body objected. I waited while they went for a walk. All I can do is lay on my side. I am so pooped these days, for real.

Well there are only 8-11 more weeks to go of all of this madness. And then the new game begins. And new sleep patterns. Oy.

FCC Cites Stern, Bono for Indecency

FCC Cites Stern, Bono for Indecency

Okay the First Amendment is in trouble. I think everyone appearing on camera should start stripping and cursing. I feel like an indecency campaign is something that's been invented to try to keep us from looking at something else...maybe an unjust war and thousands of dead innocent people and the people who are profitting from all of these wicked actions overseas.

I feel like we are living at the end of a "Godfather" movie and that all of these people who were put in power by the US are being systematically removed so the US can still be on top. Our government appears to be taking out the competition. Aristide was taken on a rather long trip, destination unknown.

I don't know who to trust anymore. I don't know who's telling the truth. I don't even know where or how to live. It is making me crazy. I think I will just think about the baby for now.

Sorry for the gap

Sorry I've been down so long (it looks like up to me). So much goes on in just a few weeks. Our old ISP stopped hosting domain forwarding for free so we skipped to a new one. So far we like the new place. It's got lots of room.

Gail is still recovering from her c-section. The baby is beautiful. The baby's father is not so grand. He left Gail and is now trying to get custody. The guy is really crazed and has fabricated stories to support his insanity. Aram and I are doing all we can to help. Gail is in surprisingly goo health and spirits despite all this drama. It's also really nice to spend so much time with her and Bodé.

Use of Midwives, a Childbirth Phenomenon, Fades in City

Use of Midwives, a Childbirth Phenomenon, Fades in City

I was just reading a book called the Thinking Woman's Guide to a Better Birth that was discussing this. I think I am going to one of the more progressive hospitals, so I'm not that worried. Still, I think I'm planning on staying home as long as possible to avoid any unnecessary medical intervention. A few weeks ago I was told that the little boy is transverse - sideways - so I have been actively trying to turn him so as to avoid a c-section.He actually isn't supposed to be upside down for a couple of weeks, but I figured I would get him used to the idea.